| this really sux...
...y would someone push a person away who could potentially be a great match from them??
...it's like taking for granted a lifetime of happiness!!
it's all so fishy to me..and it really upsets and confuses me!!
You know what- if you can't take a hint...whatever...there are many
other people wanting a piece of the action who have waited long enough
for their turn...
..if you did take the hint..and you neglect to admit it...you're
missing out big time! i can't believe you would turn your back on
something so sweet...something so great...without even giving it a
shot!! yeah good luck w/ whatever you're "looking" for!!
sure you'll find that in this lifetime! (because whatever fit the
qualifications before was a FLUKE!)
basically i'm fustrated w/ the manipulation of the situation...
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| now that i am being forced by
my crtw class to have a xanga class blog (LROD11)...i don't have the
exitement towards this one anymore. it just feels like a task  thanks winthrop..u suck the fun out of everything...!
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| soo...i put in my 2wks notice today
at work!! & i might get called in to work at kay
jewlers. i'm not really concerned about a job right now anyways
because i'm so loaded with school work...plus my parents told me that
they would give me an "allowence" if i quit my job-so it's a win::win.
it sux that we have classes on labor day...that's completly
retardid!! if i had just ONE extra day to work on my typography i
prolly wouldn't have rushed through it and cut my perfect letters out
the wrong size :( ::screams:: but there's nothing i can do now but turn
it in wrong ((i wouldn't expect anything better than a B-))
so darren came up to see me this past weekend -which was so sweet
considering the outrageous gas prices now. i feel like he's the
only person i truly enjoy spending time with...and i really cherish
that!
my 20th birthday is fast approaching and adding to the exitement is my
"official" one YEAR with darren. ((see it would be more but we
broke up for 3 horrible mths-so i had to push back the official
date)). i have no idea what i'm going to be doing...and for some
odd reason i really don't feel like partying/drinking....i think i want
it to be just great bonding time with everyone i love and don't get to
see everyday-that would be an ideal present for me since i'm stranded
at rock thrill. i asked
my mom for an IPOD...sort of half joking b/c i know that's aiming kind
of high for a birthday present....but i actually feel kind of hopefull
about it. who knows maybe they think i deserve it.
well i'm not tired b/c of my hectic weekend..but i'm going to make myself go to sleep so i'll be able to wake up for my 9am.
xOxO
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| i miss darren!!! and i can't wait until friday when he's coming up here again!!!
sunny has this book called "the book of answers" and you ask it a yes
or no question..turn to any page..and it will give you the
answer. so i was asking it some questions about my future...and i
didn't get ONE answer that i wanted..all where negative..so now i'm
scared! lol damn witch craft i tell ya!! i should burn that damn book...
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| rock hill is not longer the "thrill" that it used to be.....is
sux!! my classes are hard as shit. my GOOD ENOUGH standards
are much too low..teachers seek perfection..and i don't know if i can
deliver and keep my sanity!!
my boyfriend is in columbia, my three best friends (for life may i
add), my parents whom i have a strangely close bond with....and well to
me that's everything!! I have nothing up here but a college with a
fantastic arts dept!
finding good friends is proving to be much harder than i had
anticipated!! In the past three days I had been offered beans,
speed, crack and prozak......all by "friends" I had last year...b/c
that's all they do now and I def. have to join...
hmmm..let me think about that...
NO! not interested...never will be i'm sure....those man made
drugs are SCARY 50/50 chances with your life..and i don't want to play
the damn game!...
on a lighter note..i have some GRRREEEEAATT company over right now...and i'm going to be a good host!
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